A wake up call and an admission
Has this weird time been a wake up call for you?
I’ve been quiet for a while.
Like many, I’ve been getting my head around the pandemic situation and what it means for the world, my country, my friends and family… and me.
This has all been so strange, hasn’t it?
I’m not sure I can ever remember something affecting literally every single one of us in some way, potentially changing life as we’ve all known it for some time to come.
What this time has done for many of us is prompt us to scrutinise our lives and question whether where we were heading before lockdown is where we ACTUALLY want to go.
I’ve had a nagging voice in my head telling me that I should be stepping up and offering guidance to anyone struggling with how their life has been turned upside down… but there was something that felt off about that, like there was something else I was meant to be doing instead.
The virus has brought home that life is short and our comfortable, familiar lives can be upended with little or no warning regardless of whether we’ve been playing it safe and steady or running wild and taking risks.
It turns out, nothing is certain or secure.
That’s a loud wake up call.
When I started my business I was passionate about helping women work out what their purpose was. I still am. Going on that journey myself was what guided me to do this work. What has happened in the intervening years is that I have got so consumed with learning about how to run an online business and doing things “the way they should be done” (aka safe and steady) that I unwittingly wandered off down a slightly different path and lost sight of what I originally set out to do.
And, (deep breath), being totally truthful, I’ve made very little money as a result.
As I’ve sat writing this, I’ve dithered backwards and forwards about whether to make that admission, it’s embarrassing… but there it is.
The energy you put into something is reflected in what you get back. I don’t mean in terms of effort, although that is also true, my lack of success hasn’t been down to a lack of effort. I mean the strength and the source of the intention you put into it. Where the desire is coming from. The further away you get from your true path the more that intention, desire and motivation gets diluted.
If your energy is coming from the wrong place it’s like rowing against the tide.
Which becomes more of a struggle the longer it continues.
We need to own our failures. A failure is only a disaster if we refuse to admit it and don’t learn from it. Writing about it like this is hard, but it is my truth. I am just as prone as anyone else to get sucked into the vortex of expectation. Ironically, it’s precisely those shackles of expectation that I set out to encourage you to shed!
What I hope you’ll take from this as you watch me get back on my true path is that you can apply the same methods and principles to your own journey.
Has all that time I’ve spent learning and creating been wasted? HELL NO!! It’s all been worthwhile. All of it.
If you find yourself in a situation where you’ve spent a long time on not-quite-the-right thing, the same will be true for you if you give yourself permission to accept that.
We are all free to make better choices and change our minds any time we like… and it doesn’t have to take a world health crisis wake up call to precipitate that!
Onwards! More very soon.
Look after yourselves.